So as a person especially being a teen we all come to realizations and deal with emotional roller coasters, but isn't that life? Without knowing what's really good, we wouldn't know what's it like to feel bad. I realized today hearing something you once thought you never wanted to hear, can be a relief, sure maybe you can be a little bummed but it's worse to rationalize things in our head.
How I discovered this was well I have recently having a fling with a guy, although it seemed he put me on a waiting list for a awhile. He wouldn't call, text back or even email, I had no idea why. When I was abut to give up he'd call or text back making me think everything was fine. I also realize we can't hide from our issues with people and pretend they don't exist. Finally today I confronted him and asked him what the heck was going on. Before I was so worried he didn't like me anymore, and thinking I did something wrong, and how unhappy I'd be if he said it was over but the truth is I was even more unhappy waiting and irrationally thinking of what i did wrong. When I heard the news of what I was so afraid of hearing two months ago, I felt relieved. Relieved I didn't have to care anymore and could move on. An unusual reaction to a breakup I know, but sometimes the things or people we think are helping us is actually holding us back. So my advice I guess, don't be afraid to step up and say what's on your mind to people who are holding you back. If the person really cares about you, they will be honest and stick around and if they don't they obviously don't deserve to be a part of your life.
I hope you like it, it kind of relates to the post.
Enjoy life, don't let anything hold you back from your dreams.